Wednesday, July 9, 2008, 16:05
today i just realised that a talent i thought i had has just disappeared, or else i never had it in the first damn place. i think it was probably the latter, but i don't like to think about it. ;(. so the talent i thought i had was debate. well, there's no questioning my love(for the nit-pickers, it's on the serious side of like) for debate. not that i like anyone in the debate club anyway. but anyway, i just realised that i'm good at speaking. not debating. today i was the second speaker by chance. cause the second speaker Shakti lost her voice. and the other back-up Sun Young reportedly didn't come to school cause of a MC. So. it was just me left. tiny, puny, inexperienced me. hmm. and what i can just about slap myself for was that i fumbled with my messily, impromptu written notes for 4 full seconds cause i couldn't find the rebuttal i wrote down just now to counter the point that something had said. it said people might get influenced by the gay community around them, and also that part of the sanctity of marriage was that people would transmit life and sire offspring. i forgot to say that reproduction was not the main point of marriage and what are we females, sows bred for reproduction? and also that my geog teacher has a gay on her list of best friends, and she's happily married, with two sons. HELL. i think forgetting about getting into the school team will be the priority for me. for now. i mean, but it's sad to give up debate. i hold one man debates with myself whenever i'm free, if i'm alone then i say it out loud, then if i'm not i don't. SIGH. ;(