So Close and Yet So Far
Tuesday, April 19, 2011, 01:10
I want a pet so that I can talk to it.



Dear Anon/Angry Bird
, 00:46
Dear Anon/Angry Bird,

Thanks to O (a junior of mine), I think that you are one of my juniors. Or someone whom I have met in school. Probably. O had texted me, and O revealed that I had a 'stalker' - well, I don't call reading my blog (even the old archives) to be stalking. Following me home is considered stalking. That would be excessive.

Thank you for your kind comments on my self-image. I would like you to know that although your comments have been exceedingly welcome and balm-like, I still hold the same kind of self-image that I have. I do not mean to say that your comments were useless; in fact, they were not. I will not elaborate further. Others who read my blog may receive the wrong idea.

K.

Talk About Visitors
Thursday, April 14, 2011, 00:47
Someone called Wolf-Eyes commented on my cbox that although I may not want Wolf Totem anymore, I could find it in the mg library. Well, the mg library was where I first saw the book. I certainly want it. Along with all the other books on my list of wanted books.

Someone else called anon, apparently, has decided that I am not fat. Unfortunately, anon is not me, and anon, even if you know me and apparently decide that I am not carrying revolting excess adipose, I believe the decision and judgement is mine alone in the end. At any rate, bear in mind that the uniform in which you probably see me in is this baggy sack that conceals everything.

Talk About Being Fucked Up
Saturday, April 9, 2011, 21:47
My juniors think I'm a nice person and they think I'm smart and good at debate! I'm having the laugh of the century. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

They think they know me. Hahahahah! That's your cue to laugh even harder 'cos they don't! I mean, yes, to a certain extent I am a nice person (despite everything I think I am not meant to kill people) but they don't know how screwed up their senior is! Hahahah!

I mean, there's so much they don't know. That people don't know, in general. Hahahah. But then again I'm not as screwed up as I could possibly be if I were other people (no finger-pointing here though) so I guess I'm doing good.

I'm having the laugh of a century - not to mention it's nice to think that others think I'm nice. :)

Saturday, April 2, 2011, 16:31
I don't believe it when you say I've lost weight because I haven't, and I still need to stop eating so much. I need to stick to three meals, not eat eight times a day.

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Friday, April 1, 2011, 18:20
As you will realise this is the third post today, consecutively, but I have to get it all out before going to do my homework in peace.

I HAVE TAEKWONDO GRADING THIS SUNDAY ASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM.......

Finally, after missing two of the scheduled gradings because of miscommunication about the dates and administrative fuck ups, I'm finally going. -.-

Welcome to Weekend Homework and Weekend Gripes.
, 18:15
I tried tracking down the bands from BandAge on fb. Turned up someone's blog post quite a while back. The female drummer from one of the bands had a blog post dedicated to her on her girlfriend's blog. Her girlfriend's uber pretty, but that's not the point. The point is that it's yet another sappy sweet love story that I'm reading.

I mean, I like reading sappy love sweet stories. It's not that I don't like them. Contrary to popular expectations I do. But the thing is that sometimes after I read them I think that the only way for me to get married is to be in an arranged marriage.

Because no one would marry me out of love.

Sure, I admit that it's a silly thing to think because I can't see into the future, but I feel as though I may as well have. Because I really don't think I'll ever get married and I'll just rot away as a spinster (though hopefully with okay fashion sense and a nice haircut).

It's fun to read about all the love stories and all the sweet things and posts on LGMH, but I think I prefer Six Billion Secrets. Because it's not as demoralising - although the love stories are supposed to give you hope sometimes I feel as though it's demoralising because I don't think I'll ever feature in anything like that.

Ah well. Back to Bio, E Math, Chem, Chinese and History. Welcome to Weekend Homework and Weekend Gripes.

, 18:08
Saturday's Knight showed me some of her friend's blogs. I went to read them. And then she showed me their fb profiles and some of their pictures.

Big mistake.

And once again I'm wallowing in some unidentified feeling because I see everyone who's got such... ooh-la-la stuff. Not stuff as in material possessions, but stuff as in talents. They draw really well, do Chinese calligraphy really well and somehow manage to play musical instruments, learn computer code and ace their studies. And do well in sports. Well everyone says that I can do it if I put my mind to it, but I can't for some reason. Maybe it's just me. Studying is - well, it repels me. And whenever I actually try to move my lazy arse and exercise I end up dying halfway through and just giving up. I think I'll fail 2.4 next Friday.

Yeah I think I'm definitely going to fail. And for the record, I still envy a heck of a lot of people. Side note: I need to stop eating. So much. Or else I'm going to balloon from XXL blimp to XXXXXXXXL blimp.