I have a whole revision timetable planned out and I can confidently say that I am going to try really hard to try to follow it.

But I can also tell you with absolute confidence that I will never complete or follow it properly and I am most probably not going to be able to do well, and maybe I'll be a case of CMI - can't make it - and then maybe I will retain and have another chance next year, or promote and then drop subjects. I don't know.

Or perhaps I should follow Dahlberg's study plan. Hell. View it here.

http://www.sehrarh.blogspot.com/

That is an example of extreme, good, commmitted study.

For a show of bad study attitude, look at me.

-.-

More later, maybe. I don't know.

Insecure, worried, trust shaken, fearing the worst. Wow.
Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me
As the ground vanishes I wonder will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch
As I watch everything unravel, why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't...
I need to lose weight.

Correction, I NEED to lose FAT.

I can't seem to get the motivation to go running, or to MOVE out of my seat. And I think my food intake has increased. By a lot. And I'm supposed to be done with the freaking growth spurt. If I don't go and move I'm going to get fatter.

And that is an uber depressing thought, given the fact that I am constantly surrounded by pretty or plain girls who are either average or skinny. The fact that I am fat is just constantly reinforced.

Irritating and depressing, given the fact that I have no motivation to do anything but sit on my arse and start using the computer.
Braces.

And multiple extractions.

At four and a half k, they certainly don't come cheap.

And yes, it's my birthday present! Since I was young, I've harboured a desire to have braces because I thought they looked cool with the different colours. Anyway, as I grew up they lost some of the coolness factor but I still like them and I still think they still retain some of that 'all-grown-up' thing that I liked about them when I was younger.

Two gaping holes in my mouth attest to the extractions, and I have two more next week. And I have a pretty much numbed right side of the mouth, but never mind.

Ah, birthday present. Thou shall last me for the next two years.