I can't quite make up my mind about whether life is good or bad. Or rather, whether debate is good or bad. (Am I implying that my life revolves around debate? Sucks, man.)

Last night(yes, training stretched till night), Imran reamed the team out because htey had a screwed(ie, flawed) case setup and he hated it, and we lost flat to Hwach. (Hwa Chong, that is.)

So I'm actually pretty glad that I wasn't in the line up for the firing range, with Imran as the gunman. Ah well. I'm glad 'cause I wasn't fired at (that is, I didn't get scolded.) When I told my mother that, she said that I was simply being 'xing zai le huo'. Which is, basically, taking delight in someone else's misfortune. Which is, according to the law of the universe, which I don't understand not comprehend, is just plain mean. Not my fault I never got it.

But actually, is there some kinda law of the universe, about the way things go/flow? I was wondering whether the ancient 'qi' that ancient Chinese believed in actually exists. Or some kind of mystical, spiritual life force.

Anyway, I'm in a dilemma. To apply or not to apply? (ie, To Be or Not To Be.) It's pretty important.

To Apply for NJ, or Not To Apply for NJ?

Well, it could simply be a turn or a change of things and opportunities for me, but I think I'm not decided. And today's the last day to apply online. It's a potential life-changing decision. Or at least for the next few years till I'm eighteen, anyway. Still quite long...It is to me now at this rate that time is passing.

Ah well. In case you wanna check it out, here's the site: http://www.njc.edu.sg/admission_eligibility.htm