I mean, sometimes I really wonder what life is here for. Whether we're here for something at all. What God, if he really exists, put us here for....For us to piss off others? I don't know.

For us, maybe I think he put us here to do his work for him and extend his kingdom. I don't know why he needs us to do it. If that's the reason, that is. If that's the reason, then people will definitely him rather than us, right? They'll believe a higher being, rather than believing one who is of the same social standing. They'll believe a higher power. They'll also want to see what he can do. He's the most powerful one in the universe right? Then I don't see why he doesn't just come down and give us all a choice, believe in me and come to heaven. If not, you languish with Lucifer.

I think life is so fragile, and so unpredictable. Of course you can plan the things like school and appointments, but you can't plan what goes on in it. Like I don't know whether the Home Econs oven will blow up in my face next week and kill me. I don't know if I'll get hit by a car crossing the road on my way home. And you have no way of knowing....

We are, after all, mortals. Then, life is so fragile. You can get killed by just about anything. I don't know why we were made, and why we were placed here anyway.

I mean, I don't know the true purpose of life. I wonder whether I'm really useful to anyone at all. I don't have any particular talent, I don't draw/sing well/do sports/write well/do calligraphy well. I just eat my parent's money, and I take without giving back. I don't think I contribute to anyone now, before, nor will I in the future.

I believe the world and my parents can do without me, without having to worry about me, buy me stuff, ie keep me alive...I don't konw...I don't know what to think...Can we trust anyone here on earth at all? My friends (the few I actually have) are so...untrustworthy? Even if I had some big fat secret(I don't)I wouldn't want to tell anyone...Everyone is so fallible...So vulnerable to life...What to do I don't know.