Life sucks like shit. Take my advice, I'm not kidding.

On the way to the comlab down the stairs, Yi Ting (my classmate) said 'Hey, don't you have a debate bonding thingy?' My natural response was 'HUH?' She said to ask Bertrice or Aishani. So I asked the first one I saw: Bertrice. (She was following behind Yi Ting with Amelia.)

'Oh, it's just something Mrs Choo cooked up. It's now, for the team only though, at the trellis.'

Fuck, man.

Oh, so technically according to Imran the 'friendly neighbourhood hero', as he calls himself(take it from me, he's never further, we're 'all part of the same team', supposed to 'be friends, not have enemies, nor have any secrets for debate here'. Riiight. So I must deduce that 'team' means the team that's going to RJC U14s. That's five people.

Fuck, damn it to hell. (Great, I reverted to my foul-mouthed ways. I don't want to care now. Don't spam my tagboard about this. Please.)

So what happened to your 'bond and unite as one', huh, Imran and Nathalie Koh? Bond and unite. Face it, none of those my age are remotely nice, except for Carol and Nat, whom I get along with, but they're friendly to everyone. Juniors? They're pretty good. Seniors? I get along with Megan(Dunno if I spelled that right). Madeleine is talkable. Others? I don't get along much.

I mean, it's like, I'm in some kinda like isolated lil' bubble. For the second time in fourteen years, I'm feeling what it means what it's like to be left out of something you're supposed to be part of. The first time was last year, around this time too. Damn, life sucks. 'Cause most of my activities do revolve around debate.

Imran doesn't give me much chances, since I'm just sub-standard to the rest of the people. And he keeps on saying, the team for MG and RJ U14s isn't decided yet, if we improve in time then we'll be put in, but I don't see how we'll improve if we're not given any chances to spar, even within the U14. And obviously since my only speech which made it to 4:30 was a third, then I should try out for that...That's kinda like, down the drain, all I do now is to keep time, and try to track, this is like, I'm pretty much useless...

He doesn't get that if he doesn't give chances to the rest and only to those he thinks is going to be in the team, then all us neglected ones'll never improve. We'll never make it in.

Screw, damnit.