Tired.

Tired. Tired, tired, and more tired.

That just describes me now. Not just physically...Mentally too. Tired. Of life. If God not responding. Of PFT(Physical fitness test) and 2.4 fucking km. Tired, of talking to people. Of questioning God. Of having people misunderstand my questions. Of cooking, of taking the bus alone, of having one lone outlet to express, this blog. Having people pester me about the lack of my face on Facebook(hardyharhar. That's a tired, forced laugh.) Tired, of copying out transmutation circles from manga/the Net only in school(hint, I want to do it at home.) Tired, of homework. Of school.

Don't want to do anything now, not calligraphy, not debate, not baking oatmeal cookies, not writing, not reading, not taking long bus rides alone. Just nothing.

Sleep. Forever. Without waking up. Until...everything happening now is over. Which will never happen.