I wonder if it was actually possible to journey to hell, heaven and back. Since I renounced my faith as a Christian on the 3rd of July, I don't know what to believe: whether there's a heaven or a hell. Or whether there's life after death at all. Or whether the life (which a lot of is hell by the way) we are living now is real or not.

Ugh. CTs start tomorrow. Geog and Lang. Somehow I feel oddly detached from this materialistic world, and somehow I cannot bring myself to study. To me, I do not belong in this world...But there is no other one I can inhabit...

It is such a tragedy, that us people who do not like this world and wish to create our own paradise do not have the powers to do so. And the one (whom I used to believe in) who supposedly apparently has the power, leaves the world to rot in it's own fxcking pit of shit. ie, the stench of bastardly acts and inhumane behaviour. The one with the power doesn't care. Right? Fine. Let us stew and rot and die in this fxcking pit of supposed humanity, then. Nothing I can do about it anyway.

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