Some nights I just lie awake when I get to bed at 2230 and miraculously fall asleep at 0030 when I think I'll be awake the whole night.

I hear that 'WAKE UP AND ADMIT YOU HAVE INSOMNIA!!!' shout from somewhere in the sky.

Well I don't think I'm an insomniac, anyway.

But those nights I'm just occupied by two main trains of thought:
1. Hell, I'm so goddamned jealous of other people and their seemingly perfect lives. (But it could be that I only see the good side.)
2. WHY THE HELL CAN'T I GET TO SLEEP...

Anyway, usually my thoughts just focus on the first train of thought for the first ten minutes. Then it mutinies into the second.

And then there's an emergency third when I've been awake for more than fifteen minutes: What my ideal world would be like. ie, my paradise. Yeah.

Last night: 6 and a half hours.
Night before last: 5 and a half.

Tonight, I wonder how many trains of thought will accompany me.