I am an irresponsible child.

I am irresponsible, stupid, ugly, fat, useless, worthless, and...did I mention stupid? And untrustworthy too.

I leave my homework too the last minute. I don't plan my things properly so I end up rushing. I don't always try hard enough. I don't try most of the time, period. I do homework and don't care whether it's correct (even though I have the answers). I don't do things properly and leave things half done. I don't study well, I keep procrastinating. I don't play the piano well. I have terrible handwriting and time management. I'm not good at doing things.

I take calls from friends in the middle of homework and go on 'yakking and yakking' for more than half an hour. I am addicted to things like the Internet, reading and daydreaming. I cannot be trusted to do my homework when I have my phone next to me because I may be texting people. I am stupid because I don't understand A Math and E Math and need an expensive tutor, and I still have to do homework and not care about whether I got it right or not.

I only care about reading, writing, daydreaming, the Internet and taekwondo. I don't care about my studies, and I don't care about my future, I don't have plans - I seem to not have taken heed of the fact that I NEED to study to get good grades and get a good fucking job so that I can actually live and support people.

I am ugly. I do not like smiling, except for when I am with my friends. I am not very friendly. I do not have a pretty face. I do not have a good body - I am FAT. And I know it, yet cannot push myself to exercise. I want things but I don't like the process of getting there. I am utterly lazy.

Did I mention that I was stupid?

Did I mention that I was useless and worthless, and is utterly of no use at all in writing essays or poetry or anything of the sort? I am not good at drawing, asking me to draw is the equivalent of handing an infant a crayon. I have no self-control, I do things impulsively. I spend time on things that are less important and neglect the things that I ought to do first.

In other words, I do not like myself.

To be truthful, I hate who I am.

And I am too lazy, stupid and unable to change it.

Finally, I am already at the edge. I am unable to study, I am unable to absorb information, my brain is too useless to be a sponge.

And last of all - my heart is dead.