I feel invisible.

I'm just drifting around class like a fucking ghost. Sure, so sometimes I do like to be on my own, because the others are really noisy. But the only time when people can tolerate noise is when they're a part of it. And I'm certainly not a part of it.

After En left, at all assemblies and all other things, I'm standing or sitting alone. Without anyone to stick to.

Not to say I haven't considered joining a clique. But the thing is, every single person ALREADY is in a clique, and it's just disheartening, and the one that actually has a semi-possibility - Cara's clique, complete with Miriam, Daniele, Agnes, Agatha, Nat and Melody - they're all Christians, and while they don't discriminate against me for not being one, I feel odd around them.

And today she said that my fringe was disgusting and asked if I'd cut it by myself. And that she is the person that I like, because she's a nice person. No, I'm not lesbian.

And I don't know why but I think I felt that I was satisfied with my hair - maybe because I cut it, and my mother trimmed it so that it was neater, but I thought it was okay.

And to hear her say that...

I mean like I CUT IT MYSELF AND I THINK MY FRINGE IS OKAY, SO STOP SAYING IT'S UGLY! It's meant to be weird. I told her that and she was like "No it's not weird, it's downright disgusting."

Fuck.