Well, well, well. 16/40 and 17/45 for A Math and Chem re-tests respectively.

Missed it. By four marks and by six marks respectively.

And I missed the photog trial. Or rather, I did the trial and didn't get in.

I somehow feel as though I'm just forever missing the mark.

Copied from Stong's comment on Nat's photo: "Ka Onn is good, but the ones we took in were exceptional."

Ah well. I'm not exceptional in anything anyway. And how can I be exceptional in studying when it's, honestly, the last thing I want to do? I know there are only a few more months til O's, but seriously, eternity is relative. And even another day like this is like infinite eternity to me. An honest drudge and chore.

According to Jerrold, everything is studying. According to me, I say living is studying. But the definition of studying here applies to specifically SCHOOL kinda studying. It's not what I want to do, for one. Because I can't see how all this info will actually help me if I want to have charity as a career. It's not as though I'm going to use Linear Law and Trig and stuff. Except for the practical math money stuff in E Math. Nothing else!

Honestly, I'd love to quit debate. But Photog was the only other thing that I wanted to join - make that attempt to join - and then again I didn't make it. Apparently Christie says I have the concept, but they're not seeing enough of the concept in the set of seven photos.

Well it was Variation and you gave me half an hour. What did you expect, honestly? I gave you a table partly covered with fashion magazines and partly covered with school books (fashion mags vs studying), a shot of two tables messy and around three clear (messy and clear, obviously), a walkway next to the amphitheatre (contrast between dry and wet 'cos it was raining), a colourful dustbin next to a white pillar and grey wall (variation between bright colour and drab colour), a table of varied kinds of food - I don't remember anything else.

Well too bad for me then.

If you ain't got it, you ain't got it.

And then when I asked Christie how I could possibly improve, she said it was through training - sure. Training I'm not gonna get.

Forget it.